~Soooo Conflicted~

Sydney started school today. I thought that I would feel a sense of "okay I get a whole 8 hours to do whatever I please without a 3 year old following my every step..." but I don't feel that way. I feel like I haven't seen her in a week. Shouldn't I be happy and free? I miss her already and it literally has been 30 minutes since I kissed her goodbye at her new class. I am pretty sure that she is not missing me like I am missing her. I want to go pick her up now, but I am going to try and make to at least lunch although I know she should stay until after nap time. I know that school is good for her and that she gets so much out of it, but I still feel bad for leaving her there. Don't get me wrong, I love Trinity Lutheran and I know she loves it. I just miss her.